Lyrical Essay

 

Sitting in your living room with colorful crayons and a blank piece of paper white as snow in front of you. You’re 6 years old, you draw your future, a picture perfect life

 

High school

                     College

                                    Career

                                                  Marriage

                                                                   Kids

 

Gunshots pierce your ears, the sound so loud your hearing is lost as if you went deaf for a moment. Go to your room, hide. You leave the drawing behind, a picture perfect life

Not the life you will ever live

 

You’re 16 years old, hope. You are close to finishing high school and hard work is paying off. Reaching into your backpack is the drawing. There is hope, you’re almost done with high school. You are close.

                                          Escape

 

No wait. Your drawing is ripped                                                         away from you

 

16 and pregnant. How did you end up here?

This is not the life you had imagined. You lose hope, applying to college, taking your ACT 8 months pregnant you’re starving, about to pop, and they won’t let you have a snack. You can’t go to college anyways, the low score doesn’t matter anymore. This is

not

       the

               life

 

you had imagined. You’re 18, kicked out, aside from your baby boy, you are

 

                                                                                                    alone

 

Worried, you’re working 4 jobs living in fear of your baby’s father, the piercing image of your name in cursive tattooed on his neck. He believes you belong to him, picturing the glock 19 in his hands, be careful. He’s coming for you

 

Dark as midnight and you’re reading books to your baby boy. Gunshots. will you ever escape this life? You need to

                    

      

                                               Escape

 

Coming back from a party with someone you considered a friend, you’re 20. You’ve known this friend forever, you’re comfortable. Exhausted, your eyes feel as if they were being weighed down by weights. You can’t keep your eyes open any longer. It’s the middle of the night, you open your eyes. Something was wrong

 

No

No

No

 

You were violated

                             Used

                                       Confused

 

You trusted him. He is not your friend anymore

 

Alone

 

It’s just you and your baby boy but, he gives you courage. You’re 22, it’s as dark as night and you’re reading stories to your baby boy. The sound that used to pierce your ears like glass shattering is gone, no more gunshots. Your hard work, 4 jobs, online school, single mom. You were able to                          

                                      

                                        Escape

 

Your son is 6 years old sitting in your living room drawing with crayons as colorful as a rainbow on an blank piece of paper. You see a house, a little boy, and a young woman. You reach into your purse to find your old drawing. You throw it away.

 

A house, a little boy, and young woman, together, safe.

 

The perfect life