Hmmm...

May 11, 2007:
This is the begining of some misfit lyrics.. my favoritest song by 'em....

SINGLED OUT THE KIDS WHO ARE MEAN ME
GET STRAIGHT A'S BUT THEY STILL MAKE FUN
I DONT GIVE A- ILL LAUGH LAST
STAYED IN EVERY NIGHT
DO MY HOMEWORK SO ILL BE SMART
GIRLS ALL SAY IM A LITTLE F*CKED
MOMMY IM A GOOD BOY
MOMMY IM A F*CKING SAVIOR
MOMMY IM ALIVE...

MOMMY, CAN I GO OUT AND KILL TONIGHT?!

May 4, 2007:
School is so hard. I have so much to do. Ive gotten no rest for the whole week cause I just got hired at Macy's. Stuff's crazy. AND tell me why I have SAT's tomarrow too... ughh....

April 20, 2007:
This has been the cleanest 4/20 I've ever had! Um, here's some lyrics to my Song Of the Week: (if youre sensative to grusomly canabalistic explicit lyrics, stop reading)

BROTHA LYNCH HUNG: BLACK MARKET EXCERPT
...well if you see me chewin baby guts low
would ya choke
i vomit when that teflon pierced that babys throat
peep me eatin dead c**k u trip cuz eatin dead p***y c**t
i make ya sick but its that season so my reason is legit
im havin fits,
i dream of eatin bloody p***y c**ts since i was 6
i fiend for dead p***y on my d**k
i got dust and i dont give a f**k about yo biatch
that nigga thats from the block killin up that c**k so nigga..shiat
baby barbeque ribs and guts and uh
dont make me get the deep fryin baby nuts, sluts
get ate out like a day and crooked teeth hurt
i pulled that tampax string out and straight put in work
it wouldnt work without that sicc
so page a nigga quick so i can serve you some of that s**t
and have you murderin your b***h violently
ive been key for 20 minutes and feel like killin on that nilla nilla
its that infant killa
aint the b***h mr doc D double O M
in hella heat
niggas im gone, i need another dose of human meat
i lift the creed, and black market death by the scene
as that nigga nigga that 9 millimeter poke you in yo splien...

April 6, 2007
Life sucks and then you die. You know ow you ust wake up some mornings and you hate the whole world? yeah. Thats how I'm feeling right now.

March 16, 2007:
I really dont know what to write. Right now Im just trying to get all caught up and the work that I have to do before the quarter ends. It feels like a lot of work but I really need to do it. But some things are starting to look up. Like for example I got my Trig test back today and I got a 91 on it. Im hoping that it boosts my grade to a B for the quarter but I guess we'll see. I been trying really hard though....

March 9,2007:
Ok so what realy sucks is that I didnt go see Andre like I thought I was going to. The show got sold out before I had the money to get the tickets for me and my friends. But its all good cause hes going to be in Sunnyvale in like a week or 2 so I really aint tripping cause I already got my tickets for that show. Im really excited now that I know I am going for sure.

March 2, 2007:
UNH son! In 9 days Imma go see ANDRE NIKATINA!!!!! Im so excited, me my boi, my 2 girls and one of thier man are going to Santa Cruz to the Catalyst. Ive been waiting for this for an entire month. you dont even know. I feel hella bad cause i want to take my other homegirl but there isnt enough room in the car!!! and she hella loves him too! sucks i know. MY BAD GIRL! NEXT TIME HES AROUND IMMA HOLLA AT YOU!

February 16, 2007:
Dont ever forget that life's a bitch and then you die.

February 9, 2007:
A wah do dem a wah do dem dem dem. A wah do dem a wah do dem dem dem. A meen a nuh o a meen a no o o. a nuh o a meen a no o o. me see me love her see me virgin girl... she dont wear she dimond she dont wear she pearl...i really love her so...

This is lyrics from EEK!A MOUSE, hella crazy tall reggae man! I really love him so...

February 2, 2007:
Ugh Im so freakin SICK rite now. I hate it. I really messed up my immune system. I always get sick all the time, its rediculous. Ya know, I dont even know why we do these blog things. I KNOW that no one really looks at it. Anyways, I need to call into work so I dont go in all sick. I swear, I really need a new job. Im so sick of what I do. I need better pay and better hours. Damn...

January 26, 2007:
Eneything for SELENA! [cholo said something bout putting the bumper up in his garage and putting a sign that says "ripped off by the bus of selena"]... the best people always die young I swear...

December 15, 2006:
I finally think that I found out what I seriously want to do with my life! I knew that I wanted to do psychology or something because I think I give my friends good advice and I'd like to study how people's minds work. But then I had done some thinking and realized that nursing is still taking care of people, just physically... and I dont really want to type it all but my point is: I THINK I WANT TO BE A NURSE..

December 1, 2006:
I hate how high school changes people. I have two friends that I have kicked back and watch change. And it sucks because these are/were people that I considered to be my sisters at one point. One of them I still do because she hasn't lost complete touch with who she is and where she comes from... at least not yet. The other Im not so sure about. Ive witnessed her turn her back on the only people that she has known since we were all kids. Shes turned her back on the people that truley cared about her and were always there, not caring about the other side of the story, only being conserned with what someone had done or said to her. It always used to be like that. Unfortunaly, since high school came around everything was different. And its not that I expect everything to be the same forever, but i know that emotions and memerories can be a strong thing in keeping a friendship, a sisterhood alive. But she lost that. And ultimatly, she lost the abiding, comforting love that she wouldve had, only had she stayed true and loyal to us, but more importanly herself.

November 17, 2006:
Its really hard being without the one person that you always used to go to. Its really hard feeling like youve been raped of the one thing that you know was true and pure. Its really hard to sleep at night when you know that they are doing the same thing, lying in bed and wondering if youre wondering. Its really hard not to cry when you know that thats all that the other wants to do. Its really hard to love someone you cant even feel, and its really hard to believe that God will give you the strength that you have no more of. But eventhough its hard, I know what I want and I know that I'm strong, partically because he made me that way. And I know that I'll work for it, because I wont have it any other way.

November 3,2006:
I beleive that the Drug War is a whole bunch of propaganda that Reagan tried to use back in the 80's so that the nation would be behind him. I understand that he and his wife were tring to respond to the epidemic of crack, which I agree is wack, but I do think that the "war" itself isnt something that we should be involved with today. Our government spends millions upon millions of dollars incarcerating people for minor drug offences because of the "zero tolerance" that our country has for it. I believe that if someone gets locked up for making meth, than it really is doing the community a greater good, but what about those who get caught with an ounce, even just a gram of marijuana? Should they really face doing hard time if they were simply planning on going home and watching Dane Cook? And thats just for those who think that "drugs" like marijuana are actually harmfull. To me it is as rediculous as the commercials that used to air back in the 30's or whatever when this was actually made illegal because of Henry or Hary (ionno) Anslinger who was just trying to make a name for himself in the public eye. Does the public of today really think that if you smoke herb, youre likely to kill your brother? That those who get high are going to rape white woman especially if your black? Because that is what was said back then and people believd it. People belived the mormons in Utah, which was the first state to illegalize it, that the reason why youre eyes get red is because you are being posesed by the devil. What ever happened to the constitutional ammendment of separating church and state?

October 27 2006,:
White girls bug the hell out of me. They run around with their coach shoes and gucci purses and text eachother even though they are right next to eachother about what they bought with daddy's credit card at santana row. Well ya know what? I hope that the next time you go there driving youre brand new BMW that you got for youre 16th, that you smear your eyeliner and because of your vanity you get whats coming and drive off a cliff.

October 20, 2006:
I really want to travel the world someday. I want to go see the Northern Lights before I die and I know I will go see it someday. I really want to go to Europe but I hope to be lucky enough to have the funds to be able to go to whre i want to go and see waht i want to see so I can get the full experience. If I do go, I know that I want to go to Amesterdam (of coarse... who wouldnt want to go there... hah) Spain, Italy, Ireland, and Greece. I just want to be able to experience different cultures and know how the world is anywhere but here. Maybe I'll join the peace corpse one day or something...

First blog:
So. Living fast and dying young. Living life recklessly untill one day you meet your fate. It isnt cut out for everybody. It sure as hell isnt for me. I want a future. I want a life. But what about those who believe that living a long life isnt necesarily cut out for them? What about those who dont want a future and dont want a life, for whatever event steared thier lives in that direction. I believe that everybody is a certain way for a reason. When people would rather live fast and die young, it isnt about suicide, it isnt about the fact that they just dont want to live, cause chances are if they were like that they would have killed themselves at the begining of adolescence and gotten it over with. I believe that it is about freeing yourself from all boundries. Living you life according to yourself and not the standards that everyone else allows you to abide by. But its a commitment. Because if you live fast and to the utmost fullest, your time will run out, fast. And you cant decide that you dont want that for yourself because youre already dead. If not literally, then youre more than likly too f***ed up to realize that youre still living. And by that point, theres pretty much no use...